dear God

Dear God
i wanna share about what i feel this week
in the beginning i felt sooooo happy that it makes me laugh all the time
but tonight,i feel like there's a big hole in my chest
God,this is like the hardest part of being a secret admirer
honestly,it's not easy to hear everything about that girl
"she's cute,she's so pretty,i love her,she's like a doll,tomorrow is our anniversary,i wanna give her a kiss and blablablabla"
sometimes i just wanna say,"can you please stop talking about that girl,have you ever thought about another girl who always watch you from a distance and waiting for a day when you come to love her!"

God,this is too hard,that i can't stand it anymore
am i wrong if i cry?
but i think cry is not enough

when will he realized?
will he realized?
5 years is not enough to realized?

Dear God,i just love him way too much




~kisses&hugs

plese:)

please
be a hand to wipe my tears away if i cry
hold my hand tight if i'm afraid
kiss me infront of your friends
give me a cup of ice cream if i feel sad
let me hold the remote control if we watch tv
let me choose the movie when we go to the cinema
remind me to pray before i go to sleep
let me cry on your shoulder
put your hand around me
give me goodnight kiss every night
don't make me miss you,always be there when i need you
help me to do my home work
say that a cake that i make is delicious even though it's not
give me a surprise on my birthday
let me be a queen on my special day
always celebrate our anniversary

but most of all
please always be the boy that i know

~kisses&hugs

am i ?

 honestly i don't have any idea what i want to write
but emm yea ummm
ah God i don't know how to write that word !
emm umm yaa well, i think i'm in love -_-
geeeeez i wrote that word!finally!
honestly i just met him last monday
and after that he calls me everynight 
yaa first time i don't think that this 'thing' will work
but God i think i'm starting to like him
he's pretty cute,pretty funny,but most of all he's so kind


but God,i'm not that sure
honestly i still in love with the one who always there in this 4 years
haaaaah

am i really in love?
am i just like him not love?
am i ?





~kisses&hugs

Lost

this is a song from Michael Buble
i love this song so damn much
read every single words,and you are the real man if you could say all of that words!
so here's the lyric,enjoy:)

I can’t believe it’s over
I watched the whole thing fall
And I never saw the writing that was on the wall
If I’d only knew
The days were slipping past
That the good things never last
That you were crying

Summer turned to winter
And the snow it turned to rain
And the rain turned into tears upon your face
I hardly recognized the girl you are today
And god I hope it’s not too late
It’s not too late
’Cause you are not alone
I’m always there with you
And we’ll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
’Cause when you feel like you’re done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you’re not lost
When your worlds crashing down
And you can’t bear the thought
I said, babe, you’re not lost

Life can show no mercy
It can tear your soul apart
It can make you feel like you’ve gone crazy
But you’re not
Things have seem to changed
There’s one thing that’s still the same
In my heart you have remained
And we can fly fly fly away

’Cause you are not alone
And I am there with you
And we’ll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
’Cause when you feel like you’re done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you’re not lost
When the worlds crashing down
And you can not bear the cross
I said, baby, you’re not lost
I said, baby, you’re not lost
I said, baby, you’re not lost
I said, baby, you’re not lost