dear God

Dear God
i wanna share about what i feel this week
in the beginning i felt sooooo happy that it makes me laugh all the time
but tonight,i feel like there's a big hole in my chest
God,this is like the hardest part of being a secret admirer
honestly,it's not easy to hear everything about that girl
"she's cute,she's so pretty,i love her,she's like a doll,tomorrow is our anniversary,i wanna give her a kiss and blablablabla"
sometimes i just wanna say,"can you please stop talking about that girl,have you ever thought about another girl who always watch you from a distance and waiting for a day when you come to love her!"

God,this is too hard,that i can't stand it anymore
am i wrong if i cry?
but i think cry is not enough

when will he realized?
will he realized?
5 years is not enough to realized?

Dear God,i just love him way too much




~kisses&hugs